flounder

i can see myself getting closer to some sort of life that makes sense. it's interesting when you go to job interviews and people seem to be saying 'you're better than this, do something more interesting.' i wonder how hard it would be to, say, only apply to jobs at universities and wait until something works out. i wonder what it means to admit you're on a somewhat odd path given what you really want to do, and what it takes to correct that track. is it easier to do it today, or can you try to excel at the 'wrong' thing and let that lead you to the right one?