hello goodbyes

i convinced myself, somewhere saturday afternoon, that i am leaving. that meant a consideration of what i need to do - look into housing options, take a look at what things i can divest myself of, clean things up, and generally get ready. one thing is sure; the decision that something like this is finally happening brings doubts more quickly than anything else. a little more than a day later, i feel like i'm trying to put things in order in my head, and that's the way to take it at this point. this past week was amazing, most especially because i took a trip. i'm out most of this coming week too. i'm already excited.